This is the first in a series of blog posts about Small Spring Records and related projects.
Today is special because we finally have an official domain name (smallspringrecords.com) and even though that might not seem like much, it’s a step towards legitimacy for us, and me personally (Shawn). Small Spring as a name and an idea has existed for roughly a year and a half at this point and it’s finally getting to a point where the ball is rolling in the right direction. 2016 was a year full of inspiration and artistic output, but it was also full of strife an misery that pulled anything it could down with it.
For instance, I went through a long period of mental illness starting around the time that the REYEZ album came out (VISTA/DVBHC). I actually haven’t even re-uploaded that album onto Bandcamp yet because of how I feel about that time in my life (roughly May-December of 2016). What ended up turning out to be a prolonged period of mania led to a handful of months that went by in a blur of awful decision making. At the time my superhuman ability to ignore and reject the opinions and aid of my loved ones resulted in eventual detainment and hospitalization by the hands of the authorities. To put it simply, I was extremely delusional and was lost in dream land even when I wasn’t asleep. I had convinced myself of a grand conspiracy both for and against me that made me act like a maniac and someone unrecognizable to the person that most people knew me as.
I’ll probably touch on the subject more in the future but for now all I really want to get across is that Small Spring Records was born during a time when I couldn’t tell up from down, and as a result has stumbled out of the starting gate, only recently gaining its legs back. The passage of time has a way of healing in some situations. This is the case with my ability to coherently and comfortably participate in artistic endeavors.
At one point I felt so broken that listening to music gave me no feeling at all, and the idea of making any myself felt like a lost cause and one that I was and forever would not be interested in. It wasn’t until May or June of this year that I really felt the desire to try again. And I had to really try. This shit didn’t come easily.
Anyway, it’s back to business at Small Spring Records and there’s lots of exciting things going on between myself and the company I keep. Karcher and I released an album last month (Welcome by Whosentient Cantaloupe). GuestHouse is releasing an album next month (L’Appel du vide). Cantaloupe is coming together as a live act in the near future and hopefully we’ll be able to play a show or two by the end of the year.
Things are good (mostly) and I’m trying to make the most of it.